Bright Black Star

Astrophysics

No physics

Nobody

Nothing

Somewhere among the inky sky

Two stars collided

Shining bright, together

Never one

Just two separate

Complementing, completing

Becoming slowly the things they could not be as one

Sparks flew and the sky was alight

Both stuck there in glorious still-flight

Showing each other the light

The way out the dark

Not alone

Together

Not together

Yet not alone

Peace they brought

Before a piece broke away

Revealing a fragmented truth

A truth that could have prevented

Things and situations

A truth making one feel filthy

Making the other feel guilty

And then it exploded

The night sky full of light

A sight so hauntingly beautiful

It broke my heart

Illuminating the Earth

The souls escaped

Spiralling downwards towards a shallow grave

Preparing to be swallowed by the Earth

Yet in the sky a supernova was occurring

Blurring the lines between virtual

And reality

Virtual reality dreams

Broken seams

Broken friendship

A lot of lost love

Yet one not in the wrong

The blinding light disappeared to reveal

One black star

Burnt, ashen, broken, alone

And one black hole

Ready to destroy anything

Still beautiful

Still strong         

Yet separated for eternity

But for the time that the light flourished

An empty dull space was filled

A heart was made to not feel alone

A mind finally felt understood

And the cold turned warm

And now I get to see what the other people see

Not the person you once revealed to me

Oxymoronic differences

Condescending tones

Coincidental friendship once again gone

And once again you're over there

and I’m here alone.

Cardboard Trophy

It’s not like I need a specific day to remember you

‘cause I think of you everyday

I imagine the things you would do

And all the things you would say

Would you still make us all laugh

The way that you used to

Would I still shout at you for eating sugary things

Knowing they were no good for you

Would half the things be the way that they are

If you were still with us right now

I wonder too much sometimes

Who, what, when, why, if and how

I wonder if I’ll recognise you

In the silvery beauty above

Will we be the form that we are

And will there be white doves

Flying all around in the sky that envelopes us

A bubble of happiness

Where no one can penetrate us...

Walking around the shops

Full of their over-commercialised crap

Teddies, cards, letters and cups

Even customised blue and white hats

And I can’t help but think of you

‘Cause I know none of that crap meant anything to you

I made you a trophy from cardboard and scraps

'No.1 Dad' it said

And that made you happier

Than handing you gold

‘cause you treasured those little things

Until they grew old

But somehow those things outlived your life

And still I question why, why, why

You were so far and still so young

But I guess you always belonged to the One...

And I’ll see you up there Daddy

Wait for me

Get a cup of tea ready

I’ll bring some cake

Together we’ll sit

Talk, laugh and cry a while

‘cause it’s those little things

That I want

That I never got to do with you

And I’ll make you proud this life

And everything is for you

I guess what I’m trying to say is

I hope you know we ain’t forgot you

That’s impossible

You’re one of the three

That gave me life

You’re the ONE I remember in good times

And in strife

And I know you’re up there looking out for us

Looking down on us

And Insha’Allah waiting for us

That dream in my head will be reality

We’ll all be together

And we’ll all be free

To be that one big happy family

The family that I always dreamed.

 Happy Father’s Day Daddy. I miss you. 

Governmental Spy

A tear fell for you

I don’t even know why

Yet I caught it in mid-flight

And let out a silent sigh

I guess I’m fed up of people

Leading me to gardens

And throwing me to dirt

Caught up in a rosebush

Like cotton wool

Yet you ain’t even slightly burnt

Two very different lifestyles

Different cultures

Different lives

Guess that’s destined to be

                                 The story of my life

I wish for just one

Who doesn’t steal, doesn’t cheat

Doesn’t lie

I guess that’s impossible

‘Cause everyone’s a

Governmental spy

So I’ll stand up for my rights

‘Cause I don’t deserve none of this

When I did nothing wrong

I’ll stand up for my rights and revolution

I’ll stand up real and strong

And if God don’t send the one that’s

Supposed to stand next to me

Then that’s cool

‘Cause everything the Almighty does

Is truly meant to be

And all good things come to an end

You win some

You lose some

You even lose real friends

But I guess what I’m trying to say is

In the end

Everything ends

So what the hell does it all matter in the first place?

Run You All.

A pigeon was knocking on my window

Scraping claws against the glass

Trying to coax me down memory lane

To a place they call the past

But I don’t wanna go

So I shut the curtain a little

But it kept on clawing

Trying to make me broke and brittle

So I cast my mind back to the shit I did for these people

Of which none are still around

‘cause I guess they got what they needed from me

And it was me that drowned

Got caught up in the pain of what they did

The way the screwed me over

And left me here all alone

Trying to find a way over

But I made it through

I grew up

Left you immature wastelike fuckers

Right there in the smog and fog of the past

You lot still think drinking, sleeping around and getting high

Is a #bigmanting

And I just ain’t about none o’ that

So fuck you lot, fuck you all

‘Cause the thing is I’m now all grown up

But you’re still really really small

You don’t even deserve this piece of sparkly bullshit

But just don’t forget it was ME that you wronged

And I apologised when I had no apologising to do

But I guess I never meant that much to you

And even now

For the people that are around and in my life

I don’t let no-one in close

Not no more

‘cause you just don’t know who’s gonna slam that door

Right there in your face when you thought all was good

Even the one I though I was gonna take to Heavens hood

Raaas why do people just not care about each other anymore

People say things

But the things they do show a different score

So this is about me now

And yeah, my heart is lonely

But I’m not desperate to have fake fuckers around

So run you

Run you all.