No Way For Us To Ever Be Together

I tidied my room and sat on my bed

Then I saw it dangling and glinting

It’d kind of become part of the decor

But then I look toward everything it stands for

And I put it on

Everytime I feel alone I put that locket on

“To remind you that you are loved”

And I know he still loves me

As I still love him

It will never go away

But I’m ready to fall in love again

Maybe I’m searching too hard

Especially with men being the confusing creatures they are

Just be straight up about things

If you don’t wanna see me again

Say it

You don’t wanna speak to me again

Say it

Don’t not let me go and then not be arsed if I try and stay

I’m not desperate

I just want to know

Kind of letting things slide at the moment

As everything is part of Allah’s master plan

That’s how you gotta see it you know

Else you’ll go insane

I don’t know a good thing when I’ve got it

Well I didn't

I do now

I’m a dick like that sometimes

No-one will ever love me like he did

But if Allah writes out everyone’s partner for them

As people keep telling me

Then why did we fall in love when there was no way for us to ever be together?

He believes in re-incarnation

And I believe in life after death

Didn’t believe in life after love at one point

But now I do

I just don’t think I believe in love after love

Am I being greedy wanting it again?

There’s an absence of many men in my life

Grandfather, Father, Brothers, Uncles, Him

Where did everyone go?

23 years has sped by

It’s so scary

and yes I am scared

Scared yet excited

I wonder what this coming year will bring

Like I said to her earlier

My leaf may have already fallen

And this year may be the year I go

So in the end, it doesn't even really matter

Does it?