Gonna Die Tomorrow

We should have never let you go

We should have made you stay

But you booked it all and you did it

Plain and simple, simple and plain

And when the hoover broke today

It was the final straw

Sometimes I have days like this

It’s like I’m sitting in front of a door

Waiting for it to open

Now knowing what to expect

Yet feeling lost and broken

But I glued together the cracks

And I mostly did that alone

So why is there blood still seeping through

The hands of time clearly didn’t do the things

People say they’re supposed to

And now I sit here

Lost in a field of dreams

Good and bad

Nightmares that make me scream

And dreams that when I wake from

It feels like a nightmare again

Don’t know who to trust

Don’t know who’s a friend

But I’m all good

Really I am

Just kinda questioning what’s the point to all this

To the hurt, to the pain

The people that leave you

The ones that play games

We’re all dying to live

When we’re really only living to die

And if I died tomorrow

Would you shed a tear?

Would you cry?

Would those fake friends that fucked me over

Turn up at my funeral?

‘Cause in my heart I forgive ‘em

But pride makes people so ugly

That I bet they wouldn’t give a fuck

That’s the thing with me

Maybe I did expect too much from people

Because the way I was there for you

I’d want you to be there

If that were me

Forget it all man

Just forget it all

‘Cause now I’m finally free

Not tied to anyone

To him, to her, to them

I’m in it on my own

And that’s how it’s gonna stay

Right until the end.