Today Killed Tomorrow & Forever

“Tomorrow and forever...”

But tomorrow never came

Tomorrow ain’t gonna come now

‘cause everything went and changed

‘n’ they say the people closest to you

Are the ones that hurt you most

Jheeze that hurt but it’s okay

I’m still haunted by other ghosts

Ghosts of Christmas Pasts

And Ghosts of Christmas Present

But I swear Easter's just been and gone

Sometimes I’m such a lemon

I don’t even know why I’m feeling this shit

I'm such a fuckin' dick!

But it’s kinda screwed me up inside

‘cause all the while you think you trust someone

Not knowing they went and lied

And I don’t know what to do no more

‘Cause God’s taking everything away

I don’t know who to speak to

And I don’t know what to say...

Today when I was walking

I looked up to the sky

And I don’t know what happened

But the tears fell like raindrops on my face

And I opened up and cried

And I ain’t cried in a long long while

I’m not gonna sit here and lie

Other people leave

And too many people die

God snatched back so much this year

So much that made me smile

And yeah you made me smile

Genuinely lol

After such a long long while

Somebody finally got ‘it’

You-get-ME

But I’ll be okay

Things will stay the same

It’s not that I ever wanted that

It’s just right now I feel bear lame

As usual I can’t explain

That was gonna be my getaway

From all this shit inside my head

But the bastards screwed me over there too

Sometimes I wish I was dead ...

Lol

I do though I’m not lying

It will be such a sweet release

When it comes and takes me

I feel like the air I breathe is constantly suffocating me

Baiting me

Out to the pain that’s around

The pain that wants to take my smile

And push me to the ground

Push me to my knees

Crawl on top of me

Put his arms around my neck

And just

s  q  u  e  e  z  e

One of the best friends I’ve had in some time

So stay here innit

Stay by my side

I’ll be there for you

Be there for me...

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Some things shouldn’t have been said though

I wonder if any of it was true

It went on for far too long

I know you felt it too

I just wish so badly you woulda just told me

I just wish you woulda told me.