Finally Free

Thousands come and go

In and out your life

But when the realisation hits you

That you’re actually alone

And ‘cause of all the people that wronged you

Your heart’s turned to stone

And ‘cause of the tears they made you cry

Your eyes are suddenly dry

And because of the blood that spilled your veins

They’re all so parched and tight

But then the light will hit you

When you turn your attention towards Allah

Realise that you don’t need anyone

As long as you have du’a

And in du’a when you come to know

That this is the path you were meant to follow

This is the road that was supposed to wind

Until you left all that shit behind

When you realise this and accept it fully

You feel a peace you’ve never known before

‘cause when all of them closed

God opened me another door

One that invited me to come in towards contentment

One that allowed me to leave in the past my resentment

A place that taught me to forgive to be free

A place that taught me to let me love me

Somewhere I finally felt blessed with all I had

Somewhere where I’m now happy and not sad

So the thing is even if I am alone

I’m never really alone

‘cause I’ve always got Allah by my side

And He is the only ever-present, omnipresent one

He’s all I need and because of that

I am finally free.

Stole My Broken Wings

Lost in a bubble of anxiety

A broken hole full of cracks

Emptiness on which I choke

And a sadness at which I laugh

Entities all around

Floating within my reach

Reaching out my fingers

To clasp onto that which I need

They tease me and they mock me

As they jump away from my touch

Electricity-like against my skin

Burning me just too much

I close my wings around me

And lay down my head to rest

I know one day that I’ll break free

I know I’ll be the best

I am the best ‘cause there is only me

That’s all I’ll ever have

Floating alone in the universe

A sanely psychotic delusionary

Who is slowly going mad

Sparkling a little too dangerously

Enticing me with their light

Seducing me with their beauty

They are the reason I’ll take flight

These hollow wings are my haven though

This black hole a place I call home

This place cannot exist without me

Without me it is gone

A rainbow-coloured spectrum

Twists its way through my veins

Turning my blood from black

To everything insane

Yet I feel my wings thickening

I feel my insides come alive

I kick back and push myself

I’ve found a way to survive

Suddenly it closes in

The darkness places its hand over my mouth

It creeps into my eyeballs

From every place it sprouts

It tightens in around me

Coiling around my wings

And suddenly they’re broken too

And everything disappears

Floating in bubbles around me

They laugh like my pain is their medicine

They whip me with their silent words

It’s like my life is their experiment

Without my wings I take a seat

Their chains weighing me down

I sit there and take in the air

The air on which I now know

that I am destined

To drown.

Diamond Mines

They come and go

The people come and go

Enemies disguised as friends

Ready to pull the trigger

Smash a glass

And do a little dance over your grave

Then you got the others

Who follow like the sheep in a crowd

Just wanna be in with you til they get what they want

And piss off down a mine

To bask in the glory of the light of your diamonds

And that is life exactly

Sparkly, precious, beautiful

VALUABLE

Yet around the world they kill for no reason

Pull triggers on women and children

For no reason

Kill our brothers and sisters for no reason

And yet we sit here with a reason to fight

Yet we do nothing with that reason

Makes you wonder

Why we’re here if we ain’t gonna fight

Gonna sit around on your arse all your life?

Do nothing important with your life?

Don’t you wanna be remembered for doing a little something

Even a tiny little something

To help save the world?

Don’t you wanna be someone that helped save a life?

I see you guys laugh at me

When you ask me what I want from life

And I say I want to save the world

But none of you get it

‘cause it will happen

In some way I’ll play my part

and I know exactly what I mean

I already am actually

Enemies or friends by my side

Angels and devils in disguise

I’ll make it without you

Missing certain people

Certain times

Certain places, feelings and things

But when God brings you to this

He does it for the best

‘cause when I asked Him to remove my enemies

I started losing friends.

Lamp Light

Sat here by lamplight

I sit here and contemplate

On love, life, destiny and fate

Wondering why people complicate

And make things hard

That are just so simple

Why is it so hard to be good

Yet so easy to be sinful

Why do we follow that path

And live our lives in this world

When the path right ahead of us is straight

And so easy to be fulfilled

So thankful for everything

And all that with I’m blessed

I guess when you accept certain situations

You find no reason to be stressed

Live life the clean way

The good way

Live it wholeheartedly

Do the things you want to do

With a pure heart

But remember you ain’t here to stay

So when the world pushes you to your knees

You’re in the perfect position to pray

So turn to the light

To bring you out the dark

And be so thankful that you got

To see another day

Still sat here with my lamp light

Thinking of all the times

I’ve had to fight alone in life

To get to the places I wanna go

And I’m so glad that I have shown

To me

And to all those that didn’t believe in me

That I’d make it to this place

And I’m smiling happily

I know that all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Friends to strangers

Strangers to... dead

But I’m so thankful I got you as a friend

‘cause life is easier this way

Acceptance is a blessing

It makes things simpler, easier, less frustrating

Thank you Allah

For life, friends, family and dreams

I drop down to my knees

5 times a day

And say your name

Because without you

I know I wouldn’t be where I am today.