Rotten Coloured Penguin

Scrolling, scrolling

Energy, life, laughter

C O L O U R

Sucked away

Like coke through a straw

Sucked in

Making you sick

Sugar rots your teeth

Rots your insides

R O T T E N

But the past

That me

Must be forgotten

I am here

Right here, right now

This is me

The only constant is change

And boi, have I changed

Grateful for it all

Yet a little lost too

On this everlasting journey

Of reaching You

Crazy dreams

Waking me up

Sweating

Wanting to reach out

But there's only me

I'm my own saviour

My own hero

Ain't no one being that for me

So I said a prayer

And cradled myself back to sleep

And it's happening again

Another uncle in pain

But I guess this is life

Just tests in different ways

May God give him ease

And ease for us all

Counting our blessings

Against white, white walls

I'm still a penguin

Somewhere deep inside

Ready to give my love to everyone that wants it

I cannot hide

I miss her so much

Never got to mourn

But what's to mourn

When love is eternal

I just miss her hugs and our goodbyes

My angel

My two angels

My three angels

Four

I pray one day we will reunite

Inside the gates of heavens door.

S.I.09.03.15

Searching The Empty Seas

Lying in the ocean

And the waves become your skin

You become one with the Earth and the sand

And the sea

I am you, and you are me

We together are everything

And even more than that we’ll be

So take my hand here

And come on, walk with me

Seeing his face in my dreams

Knowing he’s happy

Knowing he’s there watching down on me

Makes everything real

More real than I thought it could be

Making him proud is all I ever wanted

I hope he can see this

And believe this

I’ll achieve this

With him on my side

And Him all around me

I wish for them to be everywhere I will be

And I want you to follow me

On the path that I took

You see I closed the old one

And started writing a whole new book

This ink right here flows smoothly

Beautifully

No blotches, spurts

Nothing unnecessary

Just everything that was destined for me

If He brings you to it He will bring you through it

In that you just don’t know how much I believe

I’ve been tested, contested continuously

But this peace I feel

Is nothing you’ve ever known

Like my soul is free

I want this feeling forever

I want Him to stay near to me

I’m flying, soaring, crying

It’s stunning

I can’t explain

The waves should be drowning me

But they fill me with gentle sweetness

They wrap around me

Pull me, tight and whole

Comfortably

I pray to Him just to guide me

The mistakes I make are all me

But the good I do is all from He

Shukkar Alhamdulillah

For all I have

Everything I am

Everything I’ve seen

The pain I’ve felt

The tears I’ve cried

Those times I nearly died

The people that came

The people that left

The smiles I shared

The memories I created

The times I strayed and came back to Him

Just

Alhamdulillah for everything

I can’t even explain to you want I mean

I guess true peace comes from within

Knowing that all you were ever looking for

Was right there inside you

Buried deep

Not as deep as you think

But there all along

Happiness grows from contentment

And for everything always

Thank you Allah

I’m glad you let me finally find you.

Diamond Mines

They come and go

The people come and go

Enemies disguised as friends

Ready to pull the trigger

Smash a glass

And do a little dance over your grave

Then you got the others

Who follow like the sheep in a crowd

Just wanna be in with you til they get what they want

And piss off down a mine

To bask in the glory of the light of your diamonds

And that is life exactly

Sparkly, precious, beautiful

VALUABLE

Yet around the world they kill for no reason

Pull triggers on women and children

For no reason

Kill our brothers and sisters for no reason

And yet we sit here with a reason to fight

Yet we do nothing with that reason

Makes you wonder

Why we’re here if we ain’t gonna fight

Gonna sit around on your arse all your life?

Do nothing important with your life?

Don’t you wanna be remembered for doing a little something

Even a tiny little something

To help save the world?

Don’t you wanna be someone that helped save a life?

I see you guys laugh at me

When you ask me what I want from life

And I say I want to save the world

But none of you get it

‘cause it will happen

In some way I’ll play my part

and I know exactly what I mean

I already am actually

Enemies or friends by my side

Angels and devils in disguise

I’ll make it without you

Missing certain people

Certain times

Certain places, feelings and things

But when God brings you to this

He does it for the best

‘cause when I asked Him to remove my enemies

I started losing friends.

Lamp Light

Sat here by lamplight

I sit here and contemplate

On love, life, destiny and fate

Wondering why people complicate

And make things hard

That are just so simple

Why is it so hard to be good

Yet so easy to be sinful

Why do we follow that path

And live our lives in this world

When the path right ahead of us is straight

And so easy to be fulfilled

So thankful for everything

And all that with I’m blessed

I guess when you accept certain situations

You find no reason to be stressed

Live life the clean way

The good way

Live it wholeheartedly

Do the things you want to do

With a pure heart

But remember you ain’t here to stay

So when the world pushes you to your knees

You’re in the perfect position to pray

So turn to the light

To bring you out the dark

And be so thankful that you got

To see another day

Still sat here with my lamp light

Thinking of all the times

I’ve had to fight alone in life

To get to the places I wanna go

And I’m so glad that I have shown

To me

And to all those that didn’t believe in me

That I’d make it to this place

And I’m smiling happily

I know that all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Friends to strangers

Strangers to... dead

But I’m so thankful I got you as a friend

‘cause life is easier this way

Acceptance is a blessing

It makes things simpler, easier, less frustrating

Thank you Allah

For life, friends, family and dreams

I drop down to my knees

5 times a day

And say your name

Because without you

I know I wouldn’t be where I am today.

1 Year On.

I pulled down my Script hoody

Pulled it on with joggers and my connies

Dashed my law books in a satchel

And made my way to Ronnies

Not knowing as I sat in that library

My Pua was losing his fight

Kinda knowing in the back of my mind

That someone was gonna lose life

And she called me and we laughed

‘cause the signal kept going

And there were bare freshies in the library that night

Pulling an all-nighter just like me

But why was that the one night I decided

At home I didn’t wanna be?

Something took me there that night

I remember jumping out to see my mate

Something was playing on my mind

And it was like really really late

And she was bbming me

And we were laughing ‘cause she kept calling

But it kept cutting off

But was that God giving us some kinda sign from above?

There I was typing my land law notes

For an exam taking place in 2 days

With a feeling inside me that there was no point

‘cause for some reason I wasn’t gonna sit it

Not knowing God was about to take him

And then it flashed up on my bbm

The emoticon that to this day still breaks my heart

Everyone had been trying to call me

But there I was stuck on the first floor of the library

But from the moment I saw that face

Something inside me snapped

I knew he wasn’t here no more

And then my phone started ringing

So I ran out to the stairwell on the first floor

And all I heard was sobbing

And I knew he was no more

And I screamed out in pain

A pain I can’t describe

And a man walked past me

“Love, are you okay?”

“No, no...” I choked out,

“My... Uncle... just passed away”

But you see to people he’s just my uncle

But to me he was much more than just that

The only person I believe genuinely cared

After the passing of my Dad

And a year ago God called him home too

In a way

I’m glad God relieved his pain

But he was another one called home too soon

And we miss him

We all miss him so bad

He was a genuine angel

A loving and caring Dad

A devoted husband and a god-fearing man

And they say the people that suffer pain in this life

God will look after in the next

And if that’s the case then my dear Pua

Is in the best places of the best

I look forward to the day we all see him again

Hold him again

Laugh with him again

You know, just like we used to

I miss you my beautiful Pua, I really really do

I hope you’re smiling down from Heaven

‘cause all we wanna do is make you all proud

And Insha’Allah we’ll get there

Before Allah calls us home too

Just remember we all love you so much

And we know you love us too.

Gone from sight for now, but never forgotten. I love you my Pua Mammoo. Hope you're resting in peace. xxx

Rhythm//Dhol//Bass

Been neglecting you lately

My sparkly internal thoughts

But you’re still there all tossed up inside

In the abyss of my interior morgue

And when I say morgue

I mean the depths of my mind

‘cause in this head it’s kinda all screwed up inside

Sometimes I’m scared to even dive in

‘Cause I never know what I'ma find within

...And there’s another precious life just gone

Just taken away

And you do all you can do

And you pray everyday

But if your time is here

Then you gotta go unfortunately

But he lived a good life

He was a good person

He made it, our Kuly did

But then you think of the ones he left behind

And it breaks your heart from the inside-

Out

There was three of them

And now there’s just two

And it’s so sad ‘cause things ain’t ever gonna be the same

R-D-B

The letters were three

The people were three

The album was THREE

And you can’t have three when there’s just two

God bless you Kuly

God rest you Kuly

I won’t forget the shit we used to chat over twitter

About the pigeons n shit

You were great

You’ll be truly missed

The world will make sure of it

And now you’re flying up there with the rest of ‘em

Rest in Peace and in Music

Rhythm // Dhol // Bass

Your music won’t ever age

And you’ll live on eternally through the things that you did

Blessed the world with a talent so sacred

And then you went...

I guess that’s what we all strive for

Making a name and a living

Loving and giving

Believing, not sinning

And in the end winning

‘Cause when they remember you for good

Long after you’ve gone

I think that really is the one

This is the only guarantee in life

So you gotta make sure you do it right

You can’t go back to God and ask for a new one

It don’t work like that

You ain’t a cat

You only get one chance

You don’t get nine

So live each day like it’s your last

And prepare yourself for the day

You leave us and the world

And return to the Divine.