How can you go from feeling so high to so
low
Don’t know
Just don’t know why sometimes I feel this
way
Like I just want everything to go away
Including myself
But why think like this
When I have the knowledge to be present
In every single moment
And how can I type or even think
With two little beings around me all day
And I wonder how I’ll cope when the elders
go away
And sometimes I’m just silent
I don’t know what to say
Life is so blessed but I miss where I was
born
And I know it will take some time to adjust
But it’s just so different this time
Feeling frustrated
Lonely
A bit trapped
A L O N E
But there is no one to blame in that
I have control over my life and my thoughts
So must become more powerful
Cut through them like a saw
Cuts through wood, rotten wood
Remember the days when I used to be so hood
I feel so different
Different to how I was back then
But that’s life
It changes
The past is forgotten
But there are parts of me that miss who I
used to be
I had that little spark of insanity
Crazy ideas, but I knew what I meant
And on changing the world I was hell-bent
But then everything changed
Marriage and kids came along
Made me grey before my time
Although I know my genes play a part
Tomorrow I’ll probably feel good again
Maybe it’s the heat
Being in one place
Noone to visit or to go and see
No one to adorn
C R E A T I V E B L O C K
Just want to scream
Or cry
Cry and die
Don’t want to leave them
I do think about it sometimes
I couldn’t do that
Not to them
Not to me
Have to accept and believe
That His plan is what is best for me.
