Rotting Wood

How can you go from feeling so high to so low

Don’t know

Just don’t know why sometimes I feel this way

Like I just want everything to go away

Including myself

But why think like this

When I have the knowledge to be present

In every single moment

And how can I type or even think

With two little beings around me all day

And I wonder how I’ll cope when the elders go away

And sometimes I’m just silent

I don’t know what to say

Life is so blessed but I miss where I was born

And I know it will take some time to adjust

But it’s just so different this time

Feeling frustrated

Lonely

A bit trapped

A L O N E 

But there is no one to blame in that

I have control over my life and my thoughts

So must become more powerful

Cut through them like a saw

Cuts through wood, rotten wood

Remember the days when I used to be so hood

I feel so different

Different to how I was back then

But that’s life

It changes

The past is forgotten

But there are parts of me that miss who I used to be

I had that little spark of insanity

Crazy ideas, but I knew what I meant

And on changing the world I was hell-bent

But then everything changed

Marriage and kids came along

Made me grey before my time

Although I know my genes play a part

Tomorrow I’ll probably feel good again

Maybe it’s the heat

Being in one place

Noone to visit or to go and see

No one to adorn

C R E A T I V E  B L O C K

Just want to scream

Or cry

Cry and die

Don’t want to leave them

I do think about it sometimes

I couldn’t do that

Not to them

Not to me

Have to accept and believe

That His plan is what is best for me.

Searching The Empty Seas

Lying in the ocean

And the waves become your skin

You become one with the Earth and the sand

And the sea

I am you, and you are me

We together are everything

And even more than that we’ll be

So take my hand here

And come on, walk with me

Seeing his face in my dreams

Knowing he’s happy

Knowing he’s there watching down on me

Makes everything real

More real than I thought it could be

Making him proud is all I ever wanted

I hope he can see this

And believe this

I’ll achieve this

With him on my side

And Him all around me

I wish for them to be everywhere I will be

And I want you to follow me

On the path that I took

You see I closed the old one

And started writing a whole new book

This ink right here flows smoothly

Beautifully

No blotches, spurts

Nothing unnecessary

Just everything that was destined for me

If He brings you to it He will bring you through it

In that you just don’t know how much I believe

I’ve been tested, contested continuously

But this peace I feel

Is nothing you’ve ever known

Like my soul is free

I want this feeling forever

I want Him to stay near to me

I’m flying, soaring, crying

It’s stunning

I can’t explain

The waves should be drowning me

But they fill me with gentle sweetness

They wrap around me

Pull me, tight and whole

Comfortably

I pray to Him just to guide me

The mistakes I make are all me

But the good I do is all from He

Shukkar Alhamdulillah

For all I have

Everything I am

Everything I’ve seen

The pain I’ve felt

The tears I’ve cried

Those times I nearly died

The people that came

The people that left

The smiles I shared

The memories I created

The times I strayed and came back to Him

Just

Alhamdulillah for everything

I can’t even explain to you want I mean

I guess true peace comes from within

Knowing that all you were ever looking for

Was right there inside you

Buried deep

Not as deep as you think

But there all along

Happiness grows from contentment

And for everything always

Thank you Allah

I’m glad you let me finally find you.

Rhythm//Dhol//Bass

Been neglecting you lately

My sparkly internal thoughts

But you’re still there all tossed up inside

In the abyss of my interior morgue

And when I say morgue

I mean the depths of my mind

‘cause in this head it’s kinda all screwed up inside

Sometimes I’m scared to even dive in

‘Cause I never know what I'ma find within

...And there’s another precious life just gone

Just taken away

And you do all you can do

And you pray everyday

But if your time is here

Then you gotta go unfortunately

But he lived a good life

He was a good person

He made it, our Kuly did

But then you think of the ones he left behind

And it breaks your heart from the inside-

Out

There was three of them

And now there’s just two

And it’s so sad ‘cause things ain’t ever gonna be the same

R-D-B

The letters were three

The people were three

The album was THREE

And you can’t have three when there’s just two

God bless you Kuly

God rest you Kuly

I won’t forget the shit we used to chat over twitter

About the pigeons n shit

You were great

You’ll be truly missed

The world will make sure of it

And now you’re flying up there with the rest of ‘em

Rest in Peace and in Music

Rhythm // Dhol // Bass

Your music won’t ever age

And you’ll live on eternally through the things that you did

Blessed the world with a talent so sacred

And then you went...

I guess that’s what we all strive for

Making a name and a living

Loving and giving

Believing, not sinning

And in the end winning

‘Cause when they remember you for good

Long after you’ve gone

I think that really is the one

This is the only guarantee in life

So you gotta make sure you do it right

You can’t go back to God and ask for a new one

It don’t work like that

You ain’t a cat

You only get one chance

You don’t get nine

So live each day like it’s your last

And prepare yourself for the day

You leave us and the world

And return to the Divine.

Unicorn Slaves

See me rhyme these words of a soliloquy

In a soliloquy you see I got the right to be me

To be free

To do all the things I want to do

And be all the things I wanna be

There’s a spark in my belly

Ignition to my fire

Is when I’ll transpire

Go higher

Make my father proud

And leave a name on this Earth

Remembered by a crowd

‘N’ I’ll be there

Rotting in my grave

To the system I’m a slave

Nah I think not

‘Cause when I’m below

I’ll be remembered by people above

Even though while I’m still above

Those even higher wanna watch us drown

In a system where all rights

Are held by a woman in a crown

And we’re nobodies

‘Cause that’s what they made us believe

They made our minds deceive us into not being free

But this is why I’ll be somebody

Not just anybody

Look in my eyes and you’ll see I AM somebody

So come join me on this mountain hike

There’s a pedestal waiting at the top

Don’t look down though

There’s a mighty mighty drop

Don’t worry though

My unicorn will catch you

He had a dream too

To sprout wings and fly

And he worked hard

That’s no word of a lie

And now they call him Pegasus

But he’ll always be my unicorn

I was right there when he was born

And I’ma be there til the end

Even after both our legacies live on.