Rotten Coloured Penguin

Scrolling, scrolling

Energy, life, laughter

C O L O U R

Sucked away

Like coke through a straw

Sucked in

Making you sick

Sugar rots your teeth

Rots your insides

R O T T E N

But the past

That me

Must be forgotten

I am here

Right here, right now

This is me

The only constant is change

And boi, have I changed

Grateful for it all

Yet a little lost too

On this everlasting journey

Of reaching You

Crazy dreams

Waking me up

Sweating

Wanting to reach out

But there's only me

I'm my own saviour

My own hero

Ain't no one being that for me

So I said a prayer

And cradled myself back to sleep

And it's happening again

Another uncle in pain

But I guess this is life

Just tests in different ways

May God give him ease

And ease for us all

Counting our blessings

Against white, white walls

I'm still a penguin

Somewhere deep inside

Ready to give my love to everyone that wants it

I cannot hide

I miss her so much

Never got to mourn

But what's to mourn

When love is eternal

I just miss her hugs and our goodbyes

My angel

My two angels

My three angels

Four

I pray one day we will reunite

Inside the gates of heavens door.

S.I.09.03.15

Black & White Wounds & Light

Not a single person

Knows, understands, feels

These past two years

Reaching out

Calling out

Everything out

Falls on deaf ears

An enemy to myself

Confused, lost, hung up

In a maze with no end

No way out

In my head

Black and white

Wounds and lights

It's all there

The only One left is Him

So I call to Him

Answering my prayers

In gifts wrapped with thorns

I chose this path

I chose this way

There is no going back

I want so much more than this

I want to be free of want

I want to feel all my sorrows

And cry all of my tears

But laugh all of my laughter

Smile all my smiles

And embrace all my joys

To know that, I must let Love in

Everyday is a healing process

It's making me better

All of this

The struggles, hurt, pain

It's making me better

I have to remember that

The human process is all of this

I am not my skin

I am my soul 

Even though it feels like there is no one that understands

I have Him

I have Him 

I have Him

The only one I have ever really needed

The only one I ever really want to need.

S.I.07.03.15

Martin's Dream on Chapel Hill

Martin had a dream

I have a dream

Don’t we all dream

But who makes their dreams a reality

I dream of peace

And a world of truth

Not this bullshit media

Who like to lie and accuse

But I don’t blame them

I blame those above them

An agenda where money is at the root of it all

Where money is the reason they kill

Where some lives are more sacred then others

Because what matters is how much money they can get

How much oil they can steal

How many people they can brainwash

And how many people they can divide

Divide and then conquer

It breaks my heart

Arr Eye Pee

To those innocent three

In North Carolina, killed for no reason

Is it a crime to be Muslim

Is it a crime to want peace, to want freedom

You see, I’m trying to change myself everyday

I see us as one, the whole human race

You’re no different to me except from your face

We bleed the same and we cry the same

Yet you’re falling for their game

Their trap where they ensnare you

Wrap you up as bait in their screwed up web of lies

But you have a choice my friend

You HAVE THE CHOICE

Instead of sitting down every night to watch TV

Research and educate yourself

Set yourself free

Don’t let them dictate to you who you should love and who you should hate

This isn’t even about that

Don’t fight violence with violence

Or fire with fire

Don’t fight at all

Douse it with water

Be an alternative

Be the change

I’m starting with me and then I’ll take on the world

Hold my hand, I know it’s brown

But brown is the colour of chocolate and chocolate is good

Walk with me

I’m treading on the path to save humanity.

Rooftop Strangers

When it feels like your mind has taken too much

Been through too much

To ever come back from it

And all of a sudden you're stuck in this hole

Screaming silently inside

Don't take me under, don't take me under

Don't make a noise though

Don't wake them up

Accept and move forward

Karma

Is it deserved? Was it deserved?

She opened my eyes to so much

Up on that african rooftop

Let it out

I let it out

Was my voice a stranger to me

Seems like I am a stranger to me

But the book I'm reading right now

Says to find yourself you must lose yourself completely

And I've definitely done the latter

So where am I

And who am I

But don't ever question why

Because this is all what it's meant to be

And these things are to strengthen me

And no matter who tries to break me

Even if it's the ones closest to me

I will not fall

No I will not fall

I will be the eye of the storm

I will be the middle path

I will be acceptance and forgiveness 

I will be consciousness

Just bear with me

While I try and take this weight off my mind first.

SI 19.01.15