Let it all pour out
Like the rain from the clouds
But let your heart spill out
For You are the only One who will ever understand
Even I don't understand
As the tears pour from my eyes
And my hands quiver
Raised in a perfect collaboration towards the skies
And still I don't understand
I just want to be healed
I want to be better
I just want to be the best version of me that is humanly possible
So that I can walk alongside You
Until I return to You
But I am a flawed human being
I guess that just makes me a human being
For I've made one too many mistakes
And sometimes my pride and ego consume me
I always have to be right
And sometimes I am envious
And sometimes I wish I was prettier/slimmer/better
Sometimes I am ungrateful
And many times I have been so very insecure...
But it is when I found myself broken and in pieces on the floor
That I found myself knocking at Your door
And you found me lost
You guided me
But it is only now that I am truly aware of how I used to be
How I am
How the world is
I woke up
You gave me consciousness
This inner struggle is what's most difficult
But I know that You will give me all the tools to enable ME to heal me
And sometimes I cry for no reason
And yet only You still understand why.
27.11.14
