1 Year On.

I pulled down my Script hoody

Pulled it on with joggers and my connies

Dashed my law books in a satchel

And made my way to Ronnies

Not knowing as I sat in that library

My Pua was losing his fight

Kinda knowing in the back of my mind

That someone was gonna lose life

And she called me and we laughed

‘cause the signal kept going

And there were bare freshies in the library that night

Pulling an all-nighter just like me

But why was that the one night I decided

At home I didn’t wanna be?

Something took me there that night

I remember jumping out to see my mate

Something was playing on my mind

And it was like really really late

And she was bbming me

And we were laughing ‘cause she kept calling

But it kept cutting off

But was that God giving us some kinda sign from above?

There I was typing my land law notes

For an exam taking place in 2 days

With a feeling inside me that there was no point

‘cause for some reason I wasn’t gonna sit it

Not knowing God was about to take him

And then it flashed up on my bbm

The emoticon that to this day still breaks my heart

Everyone had been trying to call me

But there I was stuck on the first floor of the library

But from the moment I saw that face

Something inside me snapped

I knew he wasn’t here no more

And then my phone started ringing

So I ran out to the stairwell on the first floor

And all I heard was sobbing

And I knew he was no more

And I screamed out in pain

A pain I can’t describe

And a man walked past me

“Love, are you okay?”

“No, no...” I choked out,

“My... Uncle... just passed away”

But you see to people he’s just my uncle

But to me he was much more than just that

The only person I believe genuinely cared

After the passing of my Dad

And a year ago God called him home too

In a way

I’m glad God relieved his pain

But he was another one called home too soon

And we miss him

We all miss him so bad

He was a genuine angel

A loving and caring Dad

A devoted husband and a god-fearing man

And they say the people that suffer pain in this life

God will look after in the next

And if that’s the case then my dear Pua

Is in the best places of the best

I look forward to the day we all see him again

Hold him again

Laugh with him again

You know, just like we used to

I miss you my beautiful Pua, I really really do

I hope you’re smiling down from Heaven

‘cause all we wanna do is make you all proud

And Insha’Allah we’ll get there

Before Allah calls us home too

Just remember we all love you so much

And we know you love us too.

Gone from sight for now, but never forgotten. I love you my Pua Mammoo. Hope you're resting in peace. xxx

Rhythm//Dhol//Bass

Been neglecting you lately

My sparkly internal thoughts

But you’re still there all tossed up inside

In the abyss of my interior morgue

And when I say morgue

I mean the depths of my mind

‘cause in this head it’s kinda all screwed up inside

Sometimes I’m scared to even dive in

‘Cause I never know what I'ma find within

...And there’s another precious life just gone

Just taken away

And you do all you can do

And you pray everyday

But if your time is here

Then you gotta go unfortunately

But he lived a good life

He was a good person

He made it, our Kuly did

But then you think of the ones he left behind

And it breaks your heart from the inside-

Out

There was three of them

And now there’s just two

And it’s so sad ‘cause things ain’t ever gonna be the same

R-D-B

The letters were three

The people were three

The album was THREE

And you can’t have three when there’s just two

God bless you Kuly

God rest you Kuly

I won’t forget the shit we used to chat over twitter

About the pigeons n shit

You were great

You’ll be truly missed

The world will make sure of it

And now you’re flying up there with the rest of ‘em

Rest in Peace and in Music

Rhythm // Dhol // Bass

Your music won’t ever age

And you’ll live on eternally through the things that you did

Blessed the world with a talent so sacred

And then you went...

I guess that’s what we all strive for

Making a name and a living

Loving and giving

Believing, not sinning

And in the end winning

‘Cause when they remember you for good

Long after you’ve gone

I think that really is the one

This is the only guarantee in life

So you gotta make sure you do it right

You can’t go back to God and ask for a new one

It don’t work like that

You ain’t a cat

You only get one chance

You don’t get nine

So live each day like it’s your last

And prepare yourself for the day

You leave us and the world

And return to the Divine.

Unicorn Slaves

See me rhyme these words of a soliloquy

In a soliloquy you see I got the right to be me

To be free

To do all the things I want to do

And be all the things I wanna be

There’s a spark in my belly

Ignition to my fire

Is when I’ll transpire

Go higher

Make my father proud

And leave a name on this Earth

Remembered by a crowd

‘N’ I’ll be there

Rotting in my grave

To the system I’m a slave

Nah I think not

‘Cause when I’m below

I’ll be remembered by people above

Even though while I’m still above

Those even higher wanna watch us drown

In a system where all rights

Are held by a woman in a crown

And we’re nobodies

‘Cause that’s what they made us believe

They made our minds deceive us into not being free

But this is why I’ll be somebody

Not just anybody

Look in my eyes and you’ll see I AM somebody

So come join me on this mountain hike

There’s a pedestal waiting at the top

Don’t look down though

There’s a mighty mighty drop

Don’t worry though

My unicorn will catch you

He had a dream too

To sprout wings and fly

And he worked hard

That’s no word of a lie

And now they call him Pegasus

But he’ll always be my unicorn

I was right there when he was born

And I’ma be there til the end

Even after both our legacies live on.

The Penguins Are Dying

Walking the clouds

And there are penguins all around

And the penguins made me smile

But then appeared a hole in the cloud

And I fell through to the next level

Not knowing I was pushed by the devil

And he’s pushing this person towards me

Who is a bit of everything I need

But then he snatches him viciously away

But I want him out of greed

I really cannot explain the things I’m feeling inside

I don’t even know who, what or why

I don’t know how it came to this

At one point it was just bliss

And now it’s good ‘cause we’re adults not kids

But still there’s something tearing

Just somewhere inside

I can’t pinpoint exactly what or where

But there’s definitely something there

Deep down inside

I shoulda walked away I know

But I stayed out of my own selfish need

Not knowing my need would backfire on me

And now I can’t be freed

It’s like I found an emerald

Among the sea of green

And then a beautiful mermaid appeared

And snatched it away from me

I know none of this would be this

If I’d known what I know now back then

I could have stopped it all

And I did for a while

But it crept up on me from behind

Took my frown for a smile

Made everything worthwhile

Brought the penguins to life

While I walked and smiled

But I burned myself on a candle

And then another candle and another

And the burns didn’t mark my skin

They kinda marked me from within

The thing is my own bullshit don’t make sense right now

And that’s a first

‘cause this is the one place where my mind

Is free to give birth

But my mind is spewing crap

More crap than usual

My own mind is confusing the hell out of me

Is this really worth the trouble

I’m looking up to the hole above my head

And I see a couple penguins

Some are lying dead

Others are screaming and crying

While watching their loved ones dying

And here I am spying

Upon a world that could have been.

Dead Black Bleeding Atrium

What did ever happen to me

You shared the news which should have broke me

Last time it choked me and nearly took my life

But somehow I got through all that strife

Alone and there weren’t nobody

And now I’m still alone but I felt nothing

Now laying awake in the middle of the night

When ghosts are out

And souls awaken

I’m wondering why this earthquake hasn’t shaken

Me or my life or the things that I do

‘Cause once upon a time it all revolved around you

But it will hit me, I know it will

Just right now everything’s so silently still

I think my heart died

But how can it be dead

When I’m kind of feeling things for someone else instead

I’m so fuckin confused I’m not gonna lie

It would be better if all men would die

Nah I don’t mean that

But my life is a blur

And men lie and chat shit

Men hurt

On one side I’m not feeling anything

And on the other

I have no idea what to feel

‘cause the truth is now I don’t know what’s fake or real

I thought I’d grown to read people

To recognize their flaws

Knowing the ones that would walk out the door

But he walked out, and kept knocking back on

And I’m glad I got over it but maybe I never will

Maybe my hearts accepted that this is how things will be

But then I think of the other and I’m like wtf really

Why does God always do this to me?